A friend recommended a blog to document the healing process and to give me an outlet for getting through a tough time. I am finding myself now in the middle of moving on and getting over the love of my life while trying to maintain a friendship with him.....I KNOW, DON'T SAY IT! Is this possible? Can it really be done? How do you close one chapter of your life and move on when the person that you are trying to let go is one of the two most important people in your life? Is it really possible to maintain a friendship with someone that made the choice to let you go after working so hard to get you?
Let's start with some history and how we got to where we are. Well, two years ago a co-worker mentioned another manager really liked me. I definitely had the "no dating anyone from work" rule and I had every intention of sticking to it. The person that she was referring to was someone that I would never have expected to be interested. He and I didn't have the best relationship. He was not my type and we really didn't get along all that well. At least....that's how I saw it. He started asking me to lunch and really put alot of time into getting to know me. We would sit and talk for hours and hours every night as we got to know each other and started to understand what each other wanted. He's 7 years younger than I am and even more inexperienced with relationships than I am. I had been single for about 6 years at this point as I focused on raising my son. Without the outside influence of a man's opinion and their ability to break down even the strongest women, I became a very confident woman comfortable in my own skin. I held my head high and let nothing or no one bother me or get under my skin. He says this was one of my best traits and what he really liked about me. He really put alot of time into getting to know me as well as letting his guard down enough that I would really get to know him.
This all sounds like a great start to what should be a long and loving relationship, right?
There is that one complicating factor that has to continue to be considered.... we work together on the same management team. We are together all day long, so there was no time to miss each other and the work relationships that each of us have with the people that we work with are in each others face all the time. All of us have relationships with co-workers that may be questionable if it were in our significant others face in time of turmoil in our own relationship. This was one factor that has lead to two years of heartbreak and days of bitterness. Watching the person that you love and want to be with, who now only want to be friends with you, as they make inappropriate comments to other managers on the management team. Yes, it's who they are and it was all in fun, but when they don't want you, its extremely difficult to sit back and watch it happen.
I'll talk more about the relationship tomorrow, but for now, we are at a conference together with the rest of the corporate management team in New Orleans. I only have to endure Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday of this conference before my healing process can begin. Thursday cannot come soon enough!!
See you tomorrow!
